The Disciplined Life

It's late, the sun has gone down and my awesome husband is still on the roof trying to fix a mysterious leak. He has been up on that roof for almost 5 hours making repairs and trusting his wisdom that he indeed has located the source of the leak. As I reflect on my life with this man, I love the fact that he never gives up. He is steady, stable, diligent, faithful, and trustworthy. Since he was little he was taught how to live a disciplined life. I see the fruit of this in all aspects of his life and I am grateful to love and learn from him. Wherein most people find living a disciplined life as boring or rigid, I have learned that it brings great freedom. Wherein some even hate the word "discipline" because of the punishment they received as a child, I have a new respect for this disciplined life. This mighty man of God is disciplined in his spiritual life, physical life and at his work place. He has great favor at work because of his diligence and faithfulness. He has taught me alot and I am honored to call him my husband, friend, greatest encourager and teacher. Thanks honey! You Rock!

Those Darn M & M's

Yesterday having lunch with a good friend of mine, we both decided we wanted a chocolate treat. It seems that when we get together, chocolate is always on our minds when normally I never think of chocolate. Well, this time, we decided to fall for the temptation. We walked over to the store, I bought my favorite, dark chocolate M & M's and I was so looking towards a "real" treat. The moment I took my first handful, I couldn't believe it, they tasted really old. Ugggg. Well I decided to eat them anyway and I actually felt sick afterwards. When I compare this one incident to other decisions in my life, there were some similarities. The thought sounded good, great idea, literally no consequences (at least I thought) and then whammo, my mind is made up and nothing is stopping me now. Only to find out that it made me feel bad (physically, emotionally or spiritually) and I had no one to blame but myself. We all have those days, those decisions and I think God uses them as training ground. I am not beating myself up over the M & M's, I am just more aware that I can make better choices and not listen to the voice in my head that says, "go ahead, no problem, satisfy your flesh."

What condition is your home in?

My home, physically and spiritually are really connected. As we recently purged items out of our garage and out of the office, it was so evident that it was not just about the physical but the spiritual as well. There were items in the office that I had a hard time getting rid of. There were clothes that were in good shape but no longer in style and honestly they were pretty old. There were things in the garage that had connections to our many years of marriage but there were many things that were just trash. As I pondered on how much the physical reflects the spiritual, I stood in amazement. I know the Lord wanted to purge things out of my life and He wanted me to let loose of old items, old ideas, old ways of doing things, old identity, old emotions - things that represented the past. There were so many blessings that came through the process of purging. Not only did we find cash (mad money) that had been packed away almost 15 years ago, we found a peace and rest in our souls. I can breathe deeply and be encouraged that the old is gone and we are ready for the new! That's what Jesus wants for all of our lives - to get rid of the old so that the new can come in. I think its called "pruning", cutting back old branches, so new growth can happen. Similar to cutting off the deadheads on your outside flowers so that they can continue to bloom. What an awesome God. He loves us so much that He isn't going to leave us the same whether that be physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They are all connected.

What, you want me to do what?

Today as I was listening to a story about a family that has hit really hard times with physical illness, I felt in my heart that there was something I was to do. I asked, "Lord? Am I to get involved with this?" I gently heard, "call them, tell them whatever they need, you can help them." I inquired of the Lord, "anything?" His sweet nudge to my heart was, "Yes, anything." But, but, but what if they ask for something really big and expensive like a mortage payment or something? What am I to do about that? I heard the Lord say, "where do you think all of this comes from anyway? Don't I own everything? You are just a steward, remember." "Oh yes, I answered, you are right!" So I wanted to obey what the Lord had told me and called this friend of mine and told her, "whatever you need, just let me know." She was so overwhelmed and humbled that so many people had reached out to her family. Now, this is what I call "church". I don't know down the line what she will need but one thing I do know, she needed to hear that someone cared enough to call and offer.

Tired and Weary

I see how our world is in so much chaos and how the buzz word in the church is "I'm busy". I wonder if we just stopped for a moment to get our tanks filled with God, how much more effective we would be in the kingdom of God. Why are we all so busy? What are we so tired and weary about? I'm included here. Sometimes I find myself weary in my prayers for my loved ones because I don't see things changing. Sometimes I get tired of my "to do" list. It can all weigh me down. I am so grateful that I can lean on God and He can carry me. In all of this, I am learning to give up control of situations and to trust Him for the outcome. I am so grateful that in my weakness, He is strong. Tired of being in the same situation or watching it go from bad to worse? Weary from trying t0 change things yourself instead of trusting God? You are not alone - we are all on the same journey. Be encouraged. God loves us and is on our team. He delights in us and wants us to delight in Him. He is our only source.

What do you hear in the silence?

I never used to like silence of any kind. I always had to have the TV or radio on just to have background noise. I was afraid that if things were too silent, I would be unprotected. Sounds crazy I know. It seems as if all the noise, chaos, yelling, screaming, etc. that I experienced in my childhood somehow brought me comfort. Silence always brought trouble. However, as the years have gone by, I have learned to love silence - in fact, I desire silence. I drive in my car without music. I roll down my window and hear life happening outside of myself. At home, those birds singing and the melodies that come from each and every one, tells a story. My connection with God is much more intentional. My heart leaps to hear from Him. So my question to you is, how comfortable are you with silence? What small still voice have you heard today? Try it, you may just like it.

Hungry?

Is your life making other people hungry for God? Interesting question as we examine the transition in the church as well as our own personal lives today. Whatever we are going through, are we staying strong and steady or are we afraid and doubtful? At times, I go back and forth myself but God always has something to say. His thoughts are higher than our thoughts and His ways are higher than our ways. Our world needs us, they hunger and thirst for Truth. Can they look at us and say, "I want what you have"? We all have lives that God wants to use. I was reading Isaiah 58:12 today which states "some of you will rebuild the deserted ruins of your cities, then you will be known as a rebuilder of walls and a restorer of homes." (NLT) I encourage you to go out of your comfort zone, reach out to people in a new way, pay it forward, do something different today to make a difference in your city, relationships or your own home. I'm hungry are you?